Andrew: I am time and time is me.
Hi Andew,
You may feel that way but this is not a statement of fact.
In actuality time is the arena in which events happen.
Andrew: So, being happy, feeling good, is about feeling good in time. That time, the feeling of it, isn’t something to be afraid of. I am time. I am the passing of time.
If everything is cut short, and all my efforts too, what was I afraid of? Wasting time? Time is me all along!
Here you are simply using a philosophical trick to relieve you of the conditioned guilt of “wasting time”.
So, when I feel happy, or have another moment when things feel good, I am not spending time or wasting it, I am it!
What is correct is that when you are not feeling good you are wasting this precious moment of being alive, now, because now is the only moment you can experience being alive, by feeling sorrowful and/or malicious.
Andrew: There was always the background morality about time for me, which was about future judgement.
When I think about wasted time, it was always laced with rebellion. I remember very early on when homework, or projects for school was expected of me, there was both the feeling of efforts for the future were futile, and there was no way I would invest in things which would get me judged!
I wanted to set the terms of my accomplishments.
I still dream like this.
In an abstract way about “the future”.
I remember feeling being ‘Vineeto’ being driven to do ‘something useful’ with ‘her’ time because of ‘her’ work-ethic conditioning.
Now, being free from the social identity and instinctual passions I have all the time in the universe, and it is always now.
But I am not ‘time’ – that is a misleading concept/ construct. It is the universe which is eternal, I am mortal.
Andrew: That is disassociated. I am the ‘time’ I am rebellious against! (link)
That sentence makes no sense whatsoever.
When will you come out of your ivory tower and play?
Cheers Vineeto