Hi Vineeto,
I really appreciate all the info you’ve provided here. Reading the conversation Richard had about feeling caring vs actual caring has started the cogs turning in my head, it makes sense that I have never actually cared, and that the feeling caring is ultimately self-centred. It makes more sense to follow being considerate, it has less of that affective nurturing flavour of caring I think.
Yes I can see that I definitely alter my behaviour around different groups in order to belong or feel like I belong, I always end up feeling like i’ve sold myself out a little after 
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Ah well, this one I have a little trouble with 
I’m not too sure if i’ve repressed the shit out of this or whats going on but sexual desire is not something I experience at all or very little and usually when im in my ovulation part of the cycle 
. I think I may have repressed it only because magical sex is not happening. Being intimate with Kuba is fun but he has said before, and I definitley agree that I lack the zest for sex.