Hi Vineeto,
Ah I think I found it! ‘I’ feel embarrassed when talking to you because ‘I’ cannot for the life of ‘me’ get you to respect ‘me’ - so it is pride. And the wanting to be respected is so that ‘I’ am substantiated, taken seriously etc.
So ‘I’ put out ‘my’ feelers, to try to set up the situation to be respected/taken seriously/substantiated, and it falls flat on the ground every single time.