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[Kub933]

Hi Vineeto,

This is all very much spot on, thank you! Indeed so far it has been ‘me’ sprinting to the edges of the human condition but then without the ongoing connection to pure intent the ‘controller’ would resurface every time, and then in the absence of that which is outside of ‘me’,’me’,’me’, ‘I’ would resort to narratives and diversions instead, that is how ‘I’ made the goal of eradicating the human condition into a narcissistic endeavour. So it is pure intent which is so crucial here. I remember Richard’s words to one of the DHO guys basically clarifying that there is no other actual freedom than via pure intent, as in to be actually free is to be that very pure intent personified. This just popped into my mind as an illustration of how critical pure intent is to becoming actually free, as in there is no other way!

@Vineeto

Indeed – and that “decisive input” is not created by willpower (the ‘controller’) but by the constant pull of pure intent. Sincerity is the key, then naiveté can follow.

Ah well I’m glad you said this, it probably saved me a lot of time trying the former option .

@Vineeto

This is a great start. Now this “glimpse” needs to grow until pure intent becomes the number one priority in your life, until it becomes the vital factor to counterbalance the inborn, automatically operating ‘self’-centricity/ ‘self’-importance. This, and only this, can give you the vital daring, and caring, required to “proceed into the new/ abandon the old”.

Yes for a start now I can see the vital importance of pure intent, that without it, it can only ever remain about ‘me’,’me’,’me’. Something that is solidly outside of ‘me’ is required to form an ongoing connection to, otherwise ‘I’ am fated to forever spin around in circles, which that is exactly what has been happening so far.

@Vineeto

Respondent: That is, ‘normal’ people usually have quite a different standard of what constitutes a good life than an actualist does. Is this a correct assessment?
Richard: Indeed it is … an actualist settles for nothing less than the perfection evidenced in a pure consciousness experience (PCE). Hence my report, in the previous e-mail, that I could not deny that all the while I was both normal and abnormal there must be/surely was something better, far better, than either the ‘great life’ or the ‘glorious life’ – and thus I would not, could not, and did not, settle for second best – and that this is precisely what I am conveying to my fellow human beings: whatever you do, do not ever settle for second best.
For the best is just here, right now, where it already has been, all along, and always will be. (Richard, AF List, No. 27f, 24 Oct 2003).

Yes I remember a similar quote of Richard’s answering to a correspondent as to why one would continue proceeding when no longer motivated by feeling bad (ie out of desperation). That is precisely how I find myself these days - that I don’t have moods anymore, I don’t go around feeling resentful or glum about life, the various aspects of ‘human wisdom’ have been explored and decimated (to borrow Devika’s word), it is second nature to have a good time being alive, as an ongoing modus operandi. And yet I know that there is something far far better, that this is a very distant second best, and even just a brief glimpse of that which exists outside of the human condition reminds me immediately of this. So it is the utter preciosity of that which is glimpsed, which is outside of ‘me’, which is the motivation to continue, even when no longer out of desperation.