Kub933's Journal

[Kub933]

Hi Vineeto,

@Vineeto

You are very welcome and I am pleased to read that “this insight has taken the legs out from underneath ‘me’”. It was obviously so engrained and inveterate that only a ‘thunderbolt’ insight allowed you to finally recognize it.

What was the action which was “the only response possible”?

I think action might not be the best word, I just couldn’t find any other word to fit though. It was that ‘I’ couldn’t squirm away from the seeing, which the “squirming away” could exactly take the form of castigation or shame, or any other way to direct attention away from this seeing working it’s way through ‘me’.

So I guess the ‘action’ was for ‘me’ to stand still (psychically) and look at this thing square on, and to allow the ramifications of it to rock through ‘my’ being. This was the only recourse possible in ‘my’ consciousness, and it happened automatically.

Indeed the ‘normal’ way to deal with a situation like this is to waste the potential of such a seeing by directing ‘my’ affective energy into essentially a way to regain ‘my’ grace, that cycle of shame and repentance, which it has no benefit at all with regards to bringing an end to the human condition. That cycle keeps ‘me’ alive.

I guess I could also say that the ‘action’ is the knowing that ‘I’ am simply not prepared to continue walking down that path (as it is a rotten path), no matter the ramifications for ‘me’.

@Vineeto

It seems that your connection to pure intent, after perhaps having been relegated to mere lip-service through a period of obfuscation and prevarication is now fully alive again, and you can focus on the relevant question of what is preventing ‘me’ from agreeing to ‘my’ abdication.

Yes I think I am still swallowing that previous bite, as it was a big one! But that is the question ineed - What is preventing ‘me’ from agreeing to ‘my’ abdication.