So yesterday I had another little success, it was precisely the point at which I would usually turn back around. So things have been going quite well and then I experienced this “rudely raw” territory, it’s that experience like the ground beneath me is disappearing and all hangs upon nothing. I notice usually this comes when I remove a “layer of the onion” and proceed towards new territory.
And I have experienced this many times and this was always the thing that defeated me, in that eventually I just could not bear that “rudely raw” feeling and would go back to the safety of the old and familiar.
So I knew that I cannot just push through this feeling, I have tried that before and it would only intensify, and I knew that I could not walk around it either. And then the option presented itself, an obvious option, which was that to the best of my ability I would get back to felicity and innocuity. So not much of a story here 
I did get back to felicity and innocuity and I had a nice training session in the evening, then since yesterday things have been clear and calm.
This is encouraging because it is exactly that thing which would usually stop me in my tracks and have me go back. It seems like with each step forward there is that period of re-orientation and this can initially stir up some intense instinctual passionate responses from ‘me’. And the main point is that in order to re-orient in the new territory ‘I’ can no longer rely on the old and familiar. The compass of pure intent is what ‘I’ orient to in the new terrority.