Well I’ll be damned but this thing is working! 
The first few days it was a little like I opened Pandoras box, because I finally began to firstly become aware of and then seek to rectify those feelings I have been avoiding, so there was quite a lot to deal with initially, there is still.
But there is already some solid results from this “persistent initialisation”, in that during those times where usually there would be the “ebbs and flows” instead there is the beginnings of a consistent (unconditional) enjoyment and appreciation. The enjoyment and appreciation is not to do with any particular things but it is the simple and down to earth joy of being here. I experience it as if I find myself “home again”, it is soft, calm and delightful, and the magical aspect is available too, just at the fingertips.
It’s weird because when the good/bad feelings are in place there is initially this sense that the place where “I am home” is nothing but a figment of my imagination. So it takes the courage of my convictions, to know that it is here for my taking and to find it over and over again.
Also it is so very clear that this place is not just for me but for everybody, it has dissolved those arguments I had a while back about saving ‘humanity’.