So what happens when I walk the wide and wondrous path is that I am going deeper and deeper into enjoyment and appreciation, until this becomes a way of living that reverberates to the very depths of ‘my’ being. This is where those last shreds of normality are cast away and there is no longer anything to return to. As Vineeto wrote a while ago one needs training for life in Terra Actualis 
But this is exactly it, can ‘I’ contemplate a life where unconditional enjoyment and appreciation is a fundamental way of living. Not a temporary respite from something but more like a given. The naive child called Kuba certainly experienced it as a given that he lived in a wonderland, he never even considered otherwise, until he became a serious adult that is. As I write this now I remember a trip with my brother and dad to a frozen lake near our house, all around was covered in deep snow, it was dark already and it was a wonderland.