Hi Vineeto,
Thank you for your reply, I have been contemplating what you are saying here. Just to check with you, is what happens at self-immolation exactly that, that having given permission with the entirety of ‘my’ being to go into oblivion ‘I’ am seen in ‘my’ totality to be nothing but a belief. That is to say ‘I’ am seen to have never actually existed in the first place. So the ‘believer’ himself is eradicated, then there is no possibility to ever go back into ‘being’. ‘I’ do not do it as ‘I’ am the ‘believer’, instead ‘I’ allow ‘myself’ to be seen and the seeing (which is not of ‘my’ doing) is what ends ‘me’?
If I am understanding/seeing it correctly then it seems very simple indeed. The ending of ‘me’ is the seeing of ‘my’ existence for what it is - an emotional play in a fertile imagination. This is also how I have entered PCE’s in that an instant of fascinated thought would trigger the (temporary) seeing that ‘I’ am not actual and then I as this body would already be here, where I have been all along.
The difference is that in the PCE ‘I’ go into abeyance, whereas with self-immolation there is the decision which takes some considerable preparation, in that ‘I’ am agreeing to be eradicated.
It seems for ‘me’ that period of “considerable preparation” has been done, and now it is literally just about it happening, it seems the part of it happening is the easy part.
It seems if not for the ‘human wisdom’ the very fact of self-immolation would be so easily available for all, that is the hard part, sorting through all the tried and failed masquerading as the tried and true.
Also in light of the above it makes complete sense that one does not attempt to eliminate the passions directly, rather ‘I’ as ‘self’ am eliminated and then there is ‘no-one’ left to ‘be’ those passions. I am reminded of what Richard wrote (to paraphrase) that ‘being’ is a heart-felt corruption of the mind - that is to say all this is because ‘I’ believe that ‘I’ exist. The tricky aspect is that ‘I’ cannot cease believing in ‘my’ existence whilst retaining ‘myself’, which also means that ‘I’ cannot be the one to do the expunging, it can only be something that happens to ‘me’ with ‘my’ permission.
So yes indeed ‘I’ am not trapped forever, rather ‘I’ am but an instant away from ‘my’ release.