Yes it should shouldn’t it and yet there is clearly something which pulls ‘me’ back and that ‘I’ then seek to overcome with the dramatisations. It seems this “I am not good enough” needs to be rooted out fully. There is something atavistic to it, it reminds me of a post I wrote a few years ago when first getting some success with applying the actualism method.
I wrote to the effect that it seemed that all ‘my’ life ‘I’ was trapped in this dark cave with monsters all around. Now ‘I’ had found an exit and was looking at the light beaming trough, ‘out there’ was delight and freedom. And yet ‘my’ whole being would as if scream not to go out there, ‘I’ would recoil at this perfection and purity, ‘I’ would rather remain in the familiar cave.
I can see now that this is the atavistic basis of this “I am not good enough”, this is not just ‘my’ personal feeling but rather where ‘humanity’ has been stuck for thousands of years. It segues into what you wrote about actual freedom not being possible in a finite and expanding universe. It was enlightenment which set the parameters of what is possible for a human being, it provided the ‘wisdom’ that human kind has been living to. One of the primary tenets of this ‘wisdom’ is that perfection is never to be lived by any human being, that we are all sinners until we depart for an after life - only there perfection can be allowed. In a way I have been living to a commandment which was given by those god men - do not dare to live perfection in this life time as this flesh and blood body. Not only is it not possible (apparently) but it is taboo, it is not allowed.
It is such a perverse feeling/belief and yet it is active in ‘me’ because why wouldn’t ‘I’ just walk through that door and leave ‘myself’ behind. It seems as though it would be too easy?! Like ‘I’ am addicted to forever journeying as a sinner. Like ‘I’ am addicted to ‘my’ problems and ‘my’ solutions. But underneath all this is the commandment that I am never to live in perfection, that life is not meant to be easy.
Experiencing that “utter fullness” the other day it was clear that it is here for everybody and that it provides an utter safety, the magnitude of which has to be lived to be known. And yet it was experienced that it would be “too easy” if it was all over just like that. That for some obscure reason ‘I’ should suffer some more. The best I can describe this in ‘myself’ right now is the belief that life is not meant to be easy, that it is wrong to live without suffering, that life should be an ongoing struggle of the good over the bad. I am basically describing that ancient ‘wisdom’ handed out by the god men. But with the discovery of an actual freedom this wisdom was cut at the very root, it’s very founding principles were shown to be incorrect and so the rest of the worldview topples down.
So as you wrote :
The question is how long will it take until there are enough people virtually free and actually free to influence and replace the ancient wisdom still being taught in homes, schools, universities and religious/ spiritual institutions with common sense, facts and actuality, as well as equity and parity amongst human beings.
This same thing is happening inside of ‘me’ right now. The seeing which can undo ‘me’ (as well as that entire ancient worldview) is already in place. And it is in place in ‘me’ specifically and in the ‘psychic web’ in general. So indeed there is no need for dire projections, rather it is an incredible time to be alive.
As you wrote now it is the case of each human being - “using their initiative and native intelligence to be perfection personified, which is both one’s birthright and one’s destiny.”
Yesterday it clicked what you have been encouraging us to do, which is to find something that ‘I’ deeply and passionately care about. I can see that this is something that needs to feel true to the core of ‘my’ being, something that ‘I’ have wanted so much all of ‘my’ life. I understand this is meant as an open question and for the answer to come experientially but I just wanted to write about the general flavour of this so far.
What I could see yesterday is that all ‘my’ life ‘I’ was resentful and angry at the world. I was always very perceptive of others, my mum always mentions a situation when as a young child I called out my grandmother for only pretending to be happy with grandad and actually that she did not care for him at all, and what’s better is I delivered it in a poem form 
But I was always resentful at the hypocrisy, the lack of equity, the ignorant irresponsibility and the harm that was being done by all, and yet ultimately ‘I’ could do not better. ‘I’ wanted so bad to ‘be’ the answer to all that and yet ‘my’ very being has always prevented this. My whole life there was this sense that something was off and yet I couldn’t put my finger on it, until I had that PCE at 18.
In short what ‘I’ deeply and passionately care about is to be innocence personified. To live that which the PCE demonstrated and in doing so to offer (and demonstrate) a solid alternative to the
“hypocrisy, the lack of equity, the ignorant irresponsibility and the harm that was being done by all”. This innocence is what I (and I am sure others on this forum) detect from you and if I had not experienced it first hand I would probably have believed it to be impossible.
So this is the flavour of ‘my’ deepest desire - to be that. I thought before that it is pointless to proceed in this direction precisely because ‘I’ can never ‘be’ innocent. But this is exactly the point isn’t it? That ‘I’ must give up ‘myself’ in order to allow ‘my’ deepest desire to become an actuality.
Also ‘I’ deeply and passionately care about proving ‘humanity’ wrong, not because ‘I’ want to be on a pedestal but because ‘I’ want to conclusively show that all the madness can stop, that there is no longer any excuse for the “hypocrisy, the lack of equity, the ignorant irresponsibility and the harm that was being done by all”.
And I could see yesterday that being innocence personified is far far better than anything ‘I’ could do in terms of helping others. That simply being that is already more helpful. It’s odd but I know that I would help others more, even without doing anything specific. That just to live as innocence personified is tremendous help. 1 prime example is how the quality of discussion here has somehow magically transformed with your involvement Vineeto, it’s uncanny how it works but it most definitely does!