Slightly unrelated but I had an interesting conversation with @Sonyaxx yesterday, she reckons that my sincerity and naiveté is actually some kind of “on the spectrum” condition, that she observes me not to pick up on social cues and that I am a little special (not the kind of ‘special’ that ‘I’ was after in the past 
). I found this funny, it reminded me of a forum member deciding that Richard and Vineeto must have some cognitive defects.
So indeed there will be no prize to be delivered from any inhabitant of the real world. At first there was a slight indignation, because I have applied myself like never before in order to arrive where I have. And still to others I will likely be the “special boy”, like forest gump - “oh look he is so happy because he is so simple” (apparently gullible).
But so be it… I remembered Richard’s grandson briefly posting on the forum and describing how Richard’s family essentially took him to be the “weird cult leader on a broken down boat”.
Yet that same sincerity and naiveté has me simply proceeding forward.