The other thing I can see now is that any “combination” of the passionate energy of ‘me’ can be used as a spring-board into actual freedom. ‘I’ am the passions and the passions are ‘me’ and as such they all contain the possibility for that seeing which is the ending of ‘me’. So the specifics of how this plays out for each identity can be different. The key to the door marked “oblivion” is contained within each of ‘my’ passions, the very energy of ‘my’ being has the seed for it’s own undoing.
I can observe this in ‘myself’ that no matter what flavour of the passions, that seeing and that possibility is always there.
So this excuse of “I’m not good enough” etc is simply untenable, ‘I’ don’t have to be special in any way at all in order to self-immolate. In fact it is the other way around, that in order for ‘me’ to become special ‘I’ dissociate from ‘my’ roots and entrench ‘myself’ even deeper, further away from the possibility for ‘my’ undoing.