So to summarise the events of 1981, there was an initial period of maximised Felicious feeling, which was “increasingly overshadowed by the insistent emergence of love…”.
Thus, to this day, no one has become actually free without investigation.
@Kiman , back to you.
Did you read my post regarding what you otherwise could be investigating?;
Obviously, the desire at work is just the tip of the iceberg on what is really going on.
From what you wrote, you are only at work because it is required “for the future spouse for me to have a job”.