Hi Dj,
Thank you for the clarifications.
I don’t really see a problem – if you are “wary of letting go of those hopes and dreams”, then don’t let go of them, keep them. You will find out in the process of your pursuit of “material success in life, finding the perfect partner” what happens. Being in hypothetical fear of a hypothetical future, which may or may not happen as you imagine, is a sheer waste of time.
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Vineeto: If your ‘contemplation’ (meaning: “deep, reflective thought or focused observation”) has only resulted in projecting “an empty dreary future, devoid of colour”, thereby demonstrating your obvious and ongoing ignorement/ ignoration of Richard’s descriptions of being actually free on The Actual Freedom Trust website, then your “defence mechanism of the identity” is presently so powerful that you are unable to even establish a sensible Prima Facie Case for an actual freedom from the human condition by reading with at least one eye open, if not both eyes open – (…)
DJ: I have accepted the prima facie case as being valid. Nowhere have I dismissed the method or the goal of actualism as not valid. The empty dreary future was just something my mind projected out seemingly reflexively, and while I know feelings are not facts, I clearly have some work to do in examining that further.
I wouldn’t say I have an “iron clad case" for distrusting the actual world – it’s just a fear that came up.
So you are saying that the “empty dreary future” was a projected future as a feeling ‘being’ after having somehow banished the “hopes and dreams”?
It sounds as if you are in dire need to re-read the ‘instruction manual’ – This Moment of Being Alive – including the numerous helpful explanatory tooltips? It is a very informative article to help iron out any possible misunderstandings or ineffective usage/ habits one may have acquired about the actualism method.
The use of the actualism method has also been discussed here on the forum (see here pages 1-4) and in the Richard’s Selected Correspondence pages 1-6.
If, as you say, it was only “just a fear that came up”, then what is preventing you from feeling good right now? And before you contemplate about what you determine to be the trigger for a diminishment in feeling good, first get back to feeling good.
Richard: What the identity inhabiting this flesh and blood body all those years ago would do is first get back to feeling good and then, and only then, suss out where, when, how, why – and what for – feeling bad happened as experience had shown ‘him’ that it was counter-productive to do otherwise.
What ‘he’ always did however, as it was often tempting to just get on with life then, was to examine what it was all about within half-an-hour of getting back to feeling good (while the memory was still fresh) even if it meant sometimes falling back into feeling bad by doing so … else it would crop up again sooner or later.
Nothing, but nothing, can be swept under the carpet. (Richard, AF List, No. 68c, 31 May 2005).
DJ: Maybe a better question would be, in lieu of not having had a PCE that I can remember, how can I rememorate one – was there something that Richard did specifically that allowed him to help others to access their experiences? (link)
Try this link (Sundry, FAQ, “How Do I Induce a PCE?”). FAQs No. 5, No. 20, No. 57, No. 21 are also useful or whatever topic tickles your fancy in the index.
Cheers Vineeto