In a twist of irony; both these perspectives actually answer something Richard advised I look into a decade ago; feelings of rebellion.
I should add that as the 8th thing that has occurred this month; being able to channel that rebellion back into the desire for actual freedom.
It works also with resentment of ‘others’; I can end them - at least as far as it’s up to me to end ‘humanity’. I don’t have to rebel or resent, because I actually have the information on the ultimate "get out of jail free card ". Ultimately, in ending ‘myself’ I get to end ‘them’. That is a really freeing way of channeling these feelings back into desiring perfection like nothing else.