Hi Bart,
You really don’t see the relevance of what is written here if indeed you did write it 15 years ago?
Viz.:
The relevance is this of course: evidently that’s 15 years of doing something that is ”not what is propagated by the af-website”, and it apparently has not led to putting you on the path to actual freedom nor having a discovery of or strong connection to pure intent, and apparently not a clear experience or recollection of a PCE either?
The point of ”digging in the past” here is not so much to dig around (as in to find muck or dirt), but rather that it puts into perspective what not doing what is written on the AFT site leads to: namely, not having much success with actualism, for 15 years to boot.
The question to ask yourself is do you wanna spend another 15 years trying the same thing when it will just lead to the same outcome, or are you willing to try something else instead — perhaps actually doing what is written on the AFT site?
It’s really entirely up to you — it’s your life after all!
Cheers,
Claudiu