True. The only consensus is that there was a guy named Jesus preaching in and around ancient Judea who was crucified by the Romans. Everything else is up for debate. But when you read the supposed biographies of Jesus, every single story is lifted from the Torah or inspired by Hellenistic mystery cults, so I’m convinced that the historical person is almost entirely lost to history.
My interest in the historical Jesus stemmed from the fact that I was heavily indoctrinated and psychologically abused by this religion and needed to deconstruct the whole thing in a very long and painful process.
Have I left that God behind? Yes and no. Intellectually yes. But I can clearly see emotional imprints of this fear based belief system living on inside me. Feeling unworthy for instance. But thankfully I found the Actual Freedom website and have been doing the deeper work of investigating these feelings and freeing myself of them.