Christianity spread through the psychic web?

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@Vineeto

persistent – and you know which ones they are because they keep reoccurring – and then you will do some further investigation about the issue – it could be a belief or a principle or an ideal or even a truth taken for a fact.

The seeing of the fact that the same instinctual self operating in me is also operating in everyone else and that no one is to blame has been very helpful in nipping it in the bud. And further seeing that the instinctual passions are the source of all murders, rapes, abuse etc., has allowed me to choose to be happy and harmless while still seeing that these things are intellectually unacceptable. But yes, there are things that trigger persistent automatic emotional responses that require further investigation.

@Vineeto

The next quote is also quite revealing in that as long as you believe in the truth of what is considered right and what is wrong, you will potentially react with righteous anger when coming across injustice, unfairness, or ‘this is just wrong’ and the likes – and there is plenty of it in the world as it is with people as they are.

So to find certain things intellectually unacceptable there has to be a judgement and categorizing of behaviors correct? As in “this is wrong” but that intellectual understanding need not trigger an emotional response with the knowledge that outrage and self righteousness are part of the problem?

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Oh, but the instinctual self is programmed and bent on survival at all cost – it’s called the survival instinct.
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I should have said the instinctual self doesn’t want to be here with people as they are and things as they are. Hence all the resentment.

@Vineeto

Mmh, who is the one who wants “to give ‘myself’” and who is “‘he’” who wants “oblivion”? And who is “the instinctual self”, which “just doesn’t want to be here at all”?

I think I see what you are saying. I mean to say it is the intelligent thing to do to drop the whole thing. To stop ‘being’. Stop being both the “good” and “bad” feelings. Because I know that “I” will always revert to feeling bad and causing pain for myself and others. Now that I think about it I suppose being happy and harmless while remaining a self requires that self to agree to being here. But also to agree to let a PCE happen which is initiating the end of “me”. It gets a little fuzzy in my mind Vineeto, . Is it a paradox or am I just missing something?

@Vineeto

Now that you sorted all your different impulses and wishes into separate boxes, are you any closer to solving the problem of feeling bad?

Well I don’t think I’ve actually sorted them all but I understand why that won’t work.

@Vineeto

What happened last night? And why are you “trying to not try to let it happen again”?

Yeah more weird unclear wording on my part. I mean I can see that pushing and using force is not the way. As for what happened, while laying in bed drifting off to sleep “I” disappeared briefly. For just a second or two. It has happened in the past as well while being on the edge of sleep. There is always a pulling back immediately and I wake up fully.

Thanks